hi cybernetics
Firstly i must say that i am pleased to see a young person who has such concern for dharma...that is the first and most important step....
I believe the answer to your query may be in trying to reach a balance...a balance between practical life and spiritual life...Lord Krishna has said that 'the one who performs his dharma is most dear to me'...each of us have various duties/dharma that we acquire as being part of a family or society...a father has to protect the family, a mother has to take care of the husband and kids, kids have to grow up and take care of their parents...this is a very basic level of duties that we acquire by birth and need to be fulfilled...
the next level of your duties is to be useful to mankind and society...you have been fortunate enough to have gained engineering knowledge unlike the thousands of others who are not even able to afford a day's meal...hence you have a great opportunity to make use of your profession to build useful devices, make money and help others as much as you can...i know you may feel that 'money' is not to be desired and that we should not go behind it...but, we have to realize that in today's world we definitely need money to live and to help others...making money is not evil, if the intention behind it is selfless...you need to be able to stand firmly on your own feet if you want to give a hand and help another person...hence i would suggest that you keep the desire to help mankind alive in your heart and work hard to be successful, so that you can help society.....you have to realize that one man alone cannot change the world directly, but a single individual can inspire and motivate millions...hence through your actions and your life you can set an example and do your part in saving mankind....
as for the spiritual side..you have to be practical and understand that the whole world works on an inter-dependant balance system..for eg-the trader is dependant on the farmer for food and the farmer is dependant on the trader for other items...similarly we each have our own duties to perform and can definitely grow spiritually along with it...i presume the dear members of HD forum would agree with me that there is no single method that takes us closer to god, each different way is unique and successful...it is not necessary that one has to do severe penance to please god or get inner peace...if done with devotion, then even a single minute of sincere prayer can take you closer...i would suggest you read this simple story which will make my point clear
Who Is A Devotee-by Lord Vishnu
Hence i would suggest that you fulfill your duties as a son, an engineer, a fellow citizen and a child of god with equal zeal and interest...since each one of them is equally significant in the eyes of god...bring back your interest in studies, since constant learning and the thirst for wisdom is the trait of a successful man...make sure you make your life one that will later be looked upon by millions as a perfect example of how to balance all duties of an individual and still attain spiritual bliss...
Sorry for the long post...pls do forgive any words of ignorance present...i myself am a young engineer and just told you how i feel you can solve your dilemma...may god bless you
Om
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