Hello,
I am living in the United States -- I am married and have two young daughters. I am a teacher in the public school system.
I am facing a dilemma: I believe that the tax dollars in the United States are often used for very inappropriate (evil) things -- high tech weapons technology, chemical weapons, immoral genetic experiments, backing of CIA operations that cause all kinds of turmoil and strife in other countries, the list goes on.
I feel responsible for the future of my daughters (helping them go to college, etc), but also feel an extreme sense of guilt for being part of a system and feeding a system that is causing the desolation of the planet and even making pretend wars to feed more money into the military industrial complex. I sometimes wonder if I've done something wrong prior to this life to be born into a country with a government that is beyond evil. Then I consider if I created more negative karma by "procreating"? I love my daughters and feel like I would not have become the person I am today, but I wonder if I have committed even more suffering in the world by the choices I've made (getting married instead of becoming a monk or something...?).
My heart aches for the suffering happening in the world and I feel like my tax money is helping to support it, but I don't know where to go or what to do. I appreciate any words of wisdom you could provide. Thank you very much.
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